November 2009
Can we just go back to the way we were?
Can we please just start over?
Hello, my name is Monique, what’s yours?
I still have faith. Do you?
Please pray for me
Break ups are hard. I guess RJ found out today that his cousin and his cousin’s girl had broken up. I don’t know when, but I guess they did. They were like his model couple. I remember when we had talked about them in the past, he would say things like “If I don’t know how any couple would make it if they didn’t.” Now that reality has hit, I don’t know how my relationship with him will go. He had...
Sometimes you just need to know when to let go and let God.
I don’t know how long it took me to admit that, but it’s true. Lately, it’s like my life is spinning wildly out of control, and there’s nothing that I can do but watch. Like a bad car accident. A huge trainwreck. I don’t know how I didn’t see it coming, but I didn’t. But as I look back, it seems...
Dust ya shoulders off.
I’m tired of trying and trying on things that won’t work in my favor. Ultimately, in the end, I work for things, exhaust myself and I’m really tired of it all. God taught me to be a good person, to keep my chin up. I’d prefer, if I could, to use the turn the other cheek tactic rather than the eye for an eye. But, these people are relentless. Really, I can’t stand it...
Lost and Found
I don’t know what’s been going on with me the last week or so, but I just came crashing down. I’m just thankful that I have two people in my life that I can actually trust and count on to be there for me. One’s my mother. And one’s Rodney Earl Kilpatrick Jr.
I hacking love him to death.
I feel so blessed to have these two people in life. I don’t know how I got...
It's always
the last straw to break the camel’s back.
I suppose even the greatest HAD to know that was gonna happen.
I wish
there were more mature people out there.
Sigh.
Is
a mental health day a legit reason for skipping class?
“Let’s put it this way, there’s a loophole in karma that i would totally exploit.
Basically anytime i fucked someone over, i could justify it by sayin they had it comin. lol”
hahahahahaahahaha
It burns when the ones that you considered friends weren’t ever really friends at all and when you need to depend on a mask to break your fall.
It stings just a bit when the one you love loses faith in you right when you’re about ready to quit.
But shit, this is when you start learning on your own, and doing things for yourself. This is when you grow up and stand tall.
It...
Wow
What a wonderful night.
Lately
I feel like I’ve been doing everything wrong.
And I can’t make anyone happy nowadays.
Nothing seems to be going right.
Hey hey hey
Today was a pretty good day. Happy Birthday babyyyyyy! =]
There were a couple damp spots on this rainy day though… Like thoughts of how I’m kind of getting sick of being used. I’m not letting it happen anymore. I’m nice enough to sit there and talk things out, but it seems that I’ve been doing a lot and people aren’t appreciative. What are you supposed to do?...
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY (NOV 6th) I know I’m early butttttt..
You’re...”
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL! (NOV 5th)
=]”
Camouflage
has been used as a way of survival in the wild since the beginning of time. I now understand why people have masks. It’s for survival. It’s a defense mechanism.
The danger in this is that the mask becomes a part of you. It begins to come as second nature and it starts becoming an alternate personality.
There’s another option.
Anesthetics. Numb yourself.
Perspective. So over it.
First of all, let me just say that I’m not going on and on about this because I’m “stuck on the topic” and “it’s still bothering me” but because it’s necessary. You don’t understand. Maybe it’s hard to grasp, but come on… this person cared enough to go and sabotage your relationship not only once, but twice. That should tell you...
Leaving
isn’t the thing to do when someone’s upset.
That’s probably the worst thing you can do. It’s better to stay with them until they’re okay.
So that’s what I’ll do.
Unexpected.
Cute, no?
I really must have...
OH!
And I’m thinking of getting a tattoo this Christmas…
I have some ideas, but anyone got any thoughts?? And where?
Today was a good day
I finished my homework pretty early, and now I’m talking to my MAN on the phone. My hubbykins. Hahahahahaha. EW. =] Hmmmm. I’m so lucky because he always knows just the right things to say. Most guys would not know what to say or like screw you over when you’re down, but not mine. He’s thaaaaaa besteresterest. And he’s so cute.
TWO DAYS! And he’s the big 1-9....
Necessity
I just have to remember that good guys are still in existence. Sigh.
I’m waiting at school because Angel doesn’t get out for a while. Stupid Californian weather keeps flip flopping on me and I’m getting a little frustrated. Isn’t it supposed to be generic sunny California weather 24 / 7 / 365??? If so, well it was not the case today. On account of not being a City native,...
Nah nah nah DIVA is the female version of a hustla
Giving Blood
rekj:
Blood ! Blood ! where? dur dur …. lol I’m sooo sleepy I fuckn gave blood and now I’m paying the price nevermind I didn’t sleep last night cause I was on the phone wit the WIFEY I love her oh so dearly giggidy giggidy but now I’m falln asleep at work and ino when I go home ima crash even tho I have a league game 2night sigh I need to make the playoffs . ahhhh work with little kids...
“HAPPY NINE MONTHS BABY!”
Whyyyyyyyy so cute
I'm tired
of her being my problem.
I can forgive, but I can’t forget.
Soooooo I’m on the phone with my baby right? “I’m drunk off your love” and he goes “You didn’t fall yet you’re not drunk.”
To which I replied, ” Yes I did.”
“When.”
“February second, two thousand and nine.”
“You fell the day I asked you...
